I have just completed Week 3 of Jorge Cruise's Belly Fat Cure. I lost 1lb this week. But mostly, I want to tell you how GOOD I feel. I mean, I feel GOOD! I have energy, I wake up early, I'm not groggy all day or grouchy with my kids over homework and dinner. I really do feel good. See look, I'm smiling right now (I really am).
But this diet isn't a Feel Good Program or Let's Make Amber a Nicer Person by Christmas. No! I signed up to lose weight damn it! But wait, or is it...?
I am an emotional eater. I know that, but I don't really know how I know that. I know I'm not eating because I'm hungry. I eat regular healthy meals... and then make brownies after the kids go to bed. I'm not crying while I do it, in fact I'm rather happy thinking how great they will taste. Or when my kids were younger and I would finally get them down for a nap, I'd run downstairs to my pantry and scan it for the highest-sugar/worst-thing-for-me/make-me-forget-the-last-hour snack. Or last year scavenging through my son's Halloween candy, picking out all the mini chocolates, eating them one after the other and hiding the wrappers. So I'm emotional/stress eater, maybe a binge eater to boot.
Not once, not even once, on this plan have I felt that need. The need to eat something sugary or wasteful. To drown out an emotion with food. To punish my body for letting me down, by putting junk into it.
So even though my loss was less than stellar this week, in fact it down right sucked, I still feel GOOD. And I now know feeling good is going to take me to the end and keep me from making poor choices. Those 40lbs do not belong to me any longer and they are going to melt right off and I will not put them back on.
See, I am smiling right now (I really am!)